Song of my life

strong winds blows
memories n dreams juxtapose
Why arent you here
I miss you so much dear

As I sat writing you a letter
the pages went helter-skelter
and you appear just out of dreams
Beautiful again, the world seems

Oh what a wonderful surprise
Are you real
My imagination I surmise
my effervesant scream

Not a single word you utter
Encompass me in your embrace
and slowly tilt my face
Me, waiting for a kiss, feelings aflutter

Never knew love can be fatal
Lovers embrace so lethal
sacrificed on atlar of greed
By my lover
A nice surprise indeed!

Behold all the splendor
A lady wee and tender
Winds wishper in her ears
Flowers dance with her
Grasshoppers play violins
Birds sing songs from within
Sun in the sky forgets to shine
Enraptured;
Look at this lady so fine!
Moon reflects her beauty
Stars decorates her hair
Rivers gushes forth
As she laughs in mirth
Behold the lady in green
The queen;Our mother earth

Mask over a mask, yet another mask
Where in it are you I ask
In corridors of silence
In vales of darkness
Within my heart
Concealment is an art
Your reply, Complete ambivalence

Blinded by your inbuilt rigid walls
My every attempt stalls
To know you better
I end up with a shutter!
Why oh why
why so many insistent lies?
Pretention thousands you devise!

Yes i have many a masquerades
I do not call spade a spade
Webs of words I create
In many ways I evade!
but for worlds I wouldnt trade
This life I self made

Survival is the name of the game
Tell me who is to blame?
Its nature that taught me to hide
And the world to be jekyll and hyde!
And now that I am worldly wise
I get a sobriquet of master of disguise ?!!!

Smoldering fire,
simmering desire
Hidden embers
glinting like saphire

Your eyes, an eloquent symphony
Desire and love
Dancing in harmony
Seeking and carassing
me....

Candle lit dinner
Tremulous shimmer
Innocuous innane chatter
Unrestrained laughter

Bubbling emotions
Drowned in wine
Lips to lips
Your hands in mine

Slowly we come closer
Exploring each other
A little more further
I can feel you shudder

Clothes shed unbeknownst
Passions reign,
Reasons cease,
Entwined and lost

Mingling sighs,
jostling thighs
Soaring high
Rising in cresendo

Ripples of pleasure
Ripples of emotions
Ripples in ocean of love

The woman in me

Needs to look
beyond horizons.
Wants to fly
In the golden sky
Embalzoned.

The woman in me..

Needs to dream
In colors of a rainbow
Beauty aglow
Wants to reach
Pinnacles.

The woman in me

Dances in rain
With kids on the lane
Sings with the birds
Songs absurd
Undeterred.

The woman in me

Waiting to utter
Feelings aflutter
Slowly unfolding
secrets multifold
Behold!

The woman in me

As I sit behind the gilded bar,
I dream,
About lands so far
Where butterflies dance in glee
And the air you breathe is free.

I notice that the lid is open,
Stealthily I try to break free
Alas, its just a ruse
Tied to my leg, was a noose.

Accompanied by your roaring laughter,
my frenzied dreams did shatter
For you it was just fun
Playing god.. you were my son....

Fettered, with a piece of thread,
Enslaved future, You, I dread.
soon after you lost interest
in me; left in the box
Chained by you
Choked, chained in death..

On the darkest of darkest night
Scared moon refuses to shine
Every animal every bird bide their time
Waiting.. waiting for light

And I walk alone...

On the treacherous bends
Amidst the crowd, Beneath the shroud
Places where angels or demons
tremble to descend,
Till the world's end

I search for you...

Are you as frantic as me or as alone?
Cold, cold i am ; cold as stone
Wandering through timelessness
Seeking you
Can you hear my clarion call?
My wounded heart's squall !

I beseech you...

On this lonely wintery nox
Lost in inviting nebulous fog
Howling in pain
Going insane..
My red glittering eyes delirious
Crazed and enraged..

I walk alone...

Oh ebullient nebulous you
why do you haunt
me, on the empty corners
the untread unwanted
roads that i walk on

Ever clingling
ever lingering

lengthening with time
when memories visit
On desolate cold nights
Where no one is in sight
you provide
Cold comfort

With you around
I am never alone

You my shadow
my clone
my keeper of secrets
you choke me
Alas, nothing can be done
Till death we are bound!

Lost and forlorn
Encompassed in darkness
A lonely soul
trying to stay afloat
against the gales of time
survival so vital
destined to glow
While the vile wind blows
am a candle
Harbinger of hope
dispelling gloom
while dreamflowers bloom
Vigilant till the first ray of sun
Spent, my work is done.

P.S; Not really satisfied by this.....


Graceful, beautiful,
Cold within , yet very hot
in a perpetual cycle caught
Not once help sought
Very delicate yet so strong
hanging there since long
flickering yet burning
Bright,
Giving light
smothered by troubles, copes
Clinging to the last hope
surviving the lifestorm
a candle by the window
Despite the wind, brightly aglow

Self indulgent lies
words that defies
Encapsulated
Ineffective Isolated
I plead clemency
A never ending odessy
Life
With many a guise

Thousands of accusations
quadrapuled confusions
Love hate guilt
Into unresloved mess,
Enmeshed
Am depressed
Embittered dismal
looking for approval

empty corridors
non existent lore
echoing silence
unrelenting vigilance
suspended in time
no reason no rhyme

P.S : I know this theme is just too traditional.. and yet I find it quaintly romantic...

Attuned to the nightly croon
Witnessed by the luminous moon
Feelings beserk , thoughts unsaid
Trustingly with you I tread
Amidst nudges and knowing glances
Accompanied by frenzied dances
Bedecked with jewels, clothes so fine
Shyness, Heady like a wine
Forgotten past beholden future
My beauty my charm.. my coaxing allure
For you,
On the virgin bed
With bowed head
In all my splendor
In your arms, I surrender

PS: I am not ashamed of the fact that this poem is completely influenced by the eagles song " Desperaado" [:D]

Oh Desperado
How long will you run
From reality for fun?
Quit.. Quit this bravado


Oh desperado
Back there you have left
A wee girl so bereft.
How can you be incommunicando?


Its time to face.
Life is not race
Think of that lace
Go back .. go back to that place.


Fighting demons
Of your past.
Do not lose...
Love that will last
Forget.. forget the el durado
Oh desperado...


Quit quit this bravado..
Forget the el durado!!

Countless rivulets
of kindness
Wrinkles...
A jewel that tinkles

A heart of gold.
A smile that holds
many stories untold.

With a child in her arm
bosom.. moist and warm
Ah a weathered charm

"Dont come near me
Can't u see?
you will burn
Shun me shun!"

Flame said.

" embrace me hon
Feel the need
Gimme the fatal kiss..
Feel the bliss"

Said the moth.


"Insanely love you've got
i cant do it i love u a lot
How can i think of the effect
When nothing of you will be left"

Flame wailed.

"Nah dear dont b sad
There r many more "moths" to be had
I wont disappear but in you
This is my love.. this is my due"

Moth persisted.

"If that is your wish, come on be with me
Let my fate
Be to wait.. to b lonely
You will get your glory..
coz you see
With you.. in love I happen to be.."

Flame said with arms wide open.

Insanely love..
Or limitless love.
I do not know
All I see is a writing moth
In arms of flame caught.

golden hue, birds few
Passion replete
Deep blush, Feelings rush
In the afterglow
Languid and mellow

Innocent wee little gal
Playing with her pal
With bucket and scoop
And shoulders adroop


Oblivious to sun
Having lotsa fun
Complete with the tassle
Voila.. a sand castle


Soon the tide rises
We have no surprises
Poof goes the sand
Labor of little hands


Broken hearts,
broken dreams
Whom to blame
whose is this scheme?

anguished expressions
shattered illusions

I wanna break free


Broken dreams
moody extremes

I wanna break free


tormented feelings
regimented thoughts

I wanna break free


soffocated fettered
words unuttered

I wanna break free


unfinshed unresolved
supressed before evolved

I wanna break free


uninhibited unshackled
Everyone I would rackle
Each danger I would tackle

I will break free

A silent scream
A bad dream..
nightmare


Wake me up
Some one dare
Spare me.. spare!


Everytime i remember
that touch that smell
The day i experienced hell


my cross to bear
All my life
My death knell


My tortured sigh
someone hear in silence
my helplessness


As i laid that night
Silence echoes my fight
my plight!


Silence echoes
Scot free, he walks away
echoes till this day


Silence echoes
My lost innocence
At nights in dreams ..

Night, witness to my pain
Driving me insane
within my heart...

Silence echoes,
My silent scream
my broken dreams..

Silence echoes....

The way you touch

Tells me so much

much more than

Your words even


I know you are shy

I know you try

I know I see

But you dont need to honey


Read my eyes

Hear my breath

We dont need words

We love each other till death


everytime we hold hands

Every time we stand

Togather against the world

Words we can't afford

For feelings that means

More than words


How can we containthis feeling

which no one can attain

Do not try dear do not say

Let you heart do the work today


More than words

more than life

more than dreams

more than death even


Our feelings dear,

Our love is all i believe in

You , is all i believe in

More than words


More than words.............

Walk on honey

Take that one step more

Do not quit now

Move for the one you adore




I wait

Since eternity

For you

Oh mon diu!




Do not be scared

Do not walk away

For your love.. you dream

Walk all the way




Over come

all the dangers

Stretch yourself to zenith

Walk wid strangers



Come to me honey

To the lands so sunny

I am waiting

Come all the way




Come and take me

In your arms

all my charms

Are for you.. come n see




Come my love

My darling

Be daring!

Come all the way!




All the way..

Come come and say

I love you

But first come..

before i die

Come all the way

Unbridled frolicking
Pospscicle streaking
faces happy
In that summer :-)

Me toddling behind
where ever you went
immersed and entwined
togather.. where the river bent

That summer and many other like it
hiding in the loft.. playing hide n seek
I remember
The scent of you
in that smokey magical afternoon
As the wind passed by

Summer winds
witness to the lost innocence
Times when we were friends
summer winds
caressing me
Brings back heady romance.
Brings back ..
you

Empty thoughts twirls
Within
Chilled to bone
Not alone
And yet derelict
Waiting..
As life flowers opens
its whorls..

trees swaying
dancing in fury
Hand of god visible truly..
swishing wind scaring.. all who have sinned
The church bells go crazy
The vision goes hazy
With our eyes skinned
We look at thee
Oh lord in your glory
Forgive our follies
The birds in tandem
Raise their voices.
Accompaniment to the storm
Various noises
The wind changes direction
calm... time for regeneration
The rains stop
Silence pin drop
Then the clamor rise again
The fear was all in vain
As the new shoot rises..
The world rejoices...

Life as it is
Festered wid dis-ease
Struggling to be
Someone i was not

Tossing and turning
crazy dreams... escaping
Ambitions burning
from within.. I got caught

Then i saw an angelic bug
Opening the cacoon with a shrug
No longer fettered
free and finally happy

This is what urged me to change
take control and arrange
To break free
To be a new me

So cheers to new beginnings
And many winnings
Come whatever may..
Cheers to living

Come hither come hither
My eyes says.. but you cannot see
Let me in let me understand you
But you are not free


In the swirl of virtuality
Is this reality??
My heart says say yes..
Mind orders. dont get into this mess

And yet.. i cannot just be
oh how you intrigue me
oh mystic you cryptic
The absolute vague..

I wish i know you better
I wish i know u to the letter
But it will take time..
I can wait for what is mine..
But are you?

So many questions so many sighs
When you answer i will go high
I guess high on happiness
Or will it be madness

You got the key
All i can do is just be
Living with this confusion
Or is it delusion ?

This poem is dedicated for Vishal and all those who dont blog after the first time :-)


As i look at you blog
Alone and desolate
Waiting for the owner to log
And then to clear the clog
In his head

It waits for words
Deep hidden
Thoughts with wings
Like birds, It waits

As i look at the man with guitar
Craving for some song
clitter clatter of your mouse
Some love song.. or some swan song!

And then I turn to mine
All ready to shine
My itterly bitterly thoughts
With renewed energy
If not anything else i atleast whine!
Not let my blog alone : :

Tell me your innermost dreams
Your fears .. the world as it seems
I want all or nothing at all


Tell me how much you love me
how much you miss me
tell me you cant live without me
tell me tell me all!


give me your insecurities, all your fallacies
give me all ...
I want all or nothing at all


I want you joys your sadness.
I want to hold you..
In my arms you can find madness
Forget your worries forget all


Reach for me when you fall
Reach for me when you are lost
reach for me in troubles soo deep
Reach for me in you sleep
I'll be there whenever you call
Reach for me


Share with me.. your life
I'll be there in every strife
I'll be there in your happiness
I will share
Let me hold you let me care
I want all or nothing at all

Drops of water in the pane..
Surging passion in my veins..
Smouldering need in you eyes
And reflected in my sigh
We tried hard to contain
it was not us but the rain.


Lost in wilderness within the shack
We shared a night till the crack...
searching and yet not meeting.
The gaze relentless in its seeking..
the golden haze of smoking fire
indicating of consequences dire


And yet lost in our own dance
Waiting for a unheeded chance.
We waited seeming for eternity..
it was but for an opputunity.
Accepting the inevitable.
And yet waiting for the conceivable...


In that instance lightening stroke
Leaving all the cautions to wind
I ran towards that unworthy bloke
Emboldened by my mistake
I didnt realize till the end
He held me tighter ..that rake


And then it happened like a dream
Corny as it may seem
We kissed senseless in the rain
We tried hard to refrain
Since that day we have been togather
Oh it was a kiss forever

Magic in the dawn
Chirping birds on the lawn
Wasn't it perfect
On that special day?


And yet i didnt see the birds
nor the flowers that unfurled
Coz i was looking out for you
You. my honey.. my world...


eyes lost into eyes..
hands enclasped never to let go
in every gesture..in every sigh
love.. you did show..


That day.. do you remember ?
You promised me ... forever
enmeshed with me in heavenly dance.
Bliss in every glance..


It is again a magical dawn
birds are still in the lawn
and I wait for you.. yet
You have long passed away..


Its been an year since that day.
When lady love scorned my way
Love is lost so are you..
Borrowed joy lost like the morning dew..

Randomly in and randomly out
You keep bugging me oh randomly thought


I tried hard and i never sought
At every step i valiantly fought


But out you pop.. enter my mind
And there is nothing else i can find


Until i express my randomly thought
And you get the due u feel u ought! [:x]

P.S: yep am in poetic mood.. cant stop rhyming dude!

I made a mistake.
We came togather..
I know too much was on stake
Believe me for me too.. but it was not meant to be for ever...


I tried to reason with u..
I tried being tough
Oh but what wud make u understand
I have no clue

Yes u love me. but i dont
Yes u wanna be togather but i wont!
What can b done abt this?
If things cud have been changed just by a wish!


Its been more than a year
Twice than we were ever togather
do u really care for me now
Or is it your fear ?

What ever it is
Do not come hither
Coz u can coz
This flower to wither....

Yesterday Neeru and me decided to write a poem on the topic "Lady of the night" or the prostitutes.. somehow my imagination went overdrive and I produced 2 of them.. here is it.....



The moon is shining bright
But can it match the sight?
Of my reflection?
Oh.. Urvashi's resurrection!!!!


Jittering nerves n broken pride..
Glittering adornment doth hide
Tears of pearls r n vanity abide
The soiled .. any body's bride


Oh what wouldn't i give
To b back to poet's hut...
In his arms my eyes shut
And not in this ostentatious rut


But I am lady of the night
How can I light
Someone's hearth...
I am blighted... since birth!




The second poem starts very much like sarojini naidu's poem.. but the words are mine.. it just flowed and i cudnt contain.. I hope you like it as much as I do!!



Nay do not grieve for the tortured sigh
,Not while I am in your arms...
Kiss me senseless i wont fight
For I am the lady of the night!


Nay do not stop for dawn is nigh..
Farmers already left for the farms....
We are here on borrowed moments,
And yet my love flows in torrents.


Nay, oh luminous moon, do not go..
Lets try and fight your foe
The shining sun ever so bright...
Mocks,On my distressed plight!


Nay do not stop its time to go
Don't look back at my woe,
Magic in the night, I do unfurl...
I am but an helpless girl..


Nay do not let the love bites hide
In the light of sparkling tear
Nor forget the night's wanton cheer...
The final offering..
Of your one night bride!!

I gaze ahead
standing on the window
I see happy birds flying
In pairs to the chicks to be fed
Where are you!


When I see moon so shy
Peeping into the garden
Amid bountiful stars
Like a bride to be.. I sigh
Where are you!


And then its so late
I resign to my fate
The moon the stars
and the faded flower
Admonishes me to wait..
where are you!


The sun has risen again
The birds sing a song
Come back soon I cant wait for long
As sky changes its hue
I rue... where r u?

Identity is such an confusing entity..
Do u belong to this or other city?
The citizens of global mayhem..
We are forever exiled...

What am i? Who am i?
Asks my torchered sigh
On lonely misty wintery night
where am i?


Who says you cannot be on two boats at the same time?
I do that all the time
Life is full of unresolved unfinished thoughts
Some really dear and some fraught.

And yet, or may be because of it
I find myself lost
In the mirage of my crazy dreams
entangled .. at what cost ?

Suspended reality,
distorted visions
Visceral duality or is it
congenital abnormality ?

Wander lust i aint got any..
And yet i roam through trecherous road
sauntering like a spinning jenny..
I search for my abode

yay!

Let me know how this is.. i know its simple.. but thats what i love :)

Yep comepletely disappointed with this blog template!!

It eats away all the space! darn it this has to go.. and yet its apparent simplicity is waht attracted me to it!

but this got to goooo

Trudgeing the well beaten path..
I am not the first one to be here ...
and I wont be the last!

I dont go fast..
I keep chugging at my pace..
Like an old engine, coming atlast...

May be i havent grabbed all the opputunity..
May be i have not been stellar
But i have left somethings..
that would last till eternity...

This is the place i have come like every one else..
And yet I do stand apart..
Coz i stopped by to see the art..
Art in the hands of divinity..

Here i saw the valour of human race..
And i saw the bedazzled evil face
I saw the innocence.. hidden in grime
I saw kindness bestowed in crime..
I made friendshp that mattered
I made mistakes that shattered..

And I learned from this all
You cannot raise until you fall
And then some more...

All these ppl I observed.
All those visions I noticed..
And I left my mark on them..
As they left on me..

And now I am more humane
coz of thisI know a part of me will stay
While I wud have long gone away..

Rain and cloulds....
horns blare.. riders glare
Do not despair

Cool breeze .. Traffic freeze..
And ppl sneeze

Fever and liver...
Sending a shiver
Makes u a believer

There is certainly heaven...
And certainly hell
What is it if not angels tears?


*** who cares? it was random! ***

Reach high,
for stars lie hidden in ur soul,
Dream deep,
for every dream preceeds a goal

To the thorns of life, I am more indebted.
Than I am to the roses sweet;
They will not let me lie inactive
While round me there are
tasks to meet.

They spur me on to nobler action
Not long allow me quiet ease.
But keep on pricking at my conscience.
And often drive me to my knees.


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I am the woman who holds up the sky,
The rainbow runs through my eyes,
The sun makes a path to my womb,
My thoughts are in shape of clouds,
But my words are yet to come........

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I must conquer my loneliness alone,
I must be happy with myself
Or I have nothing to offer
Two halves have little choice but to join;
And yes, they do make a whole ,
But when 2 wholes coincides
That is beauty, that is love.

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Nay, donot grieve though life be
full of sadness,
Dawn will not veil her
splendour for your grief,
Nor spring deny their bright,
appointed beauty
To lotus blossom and ashoka leaf.


Nay, dnot pine though life be
Dark with trouble,
Time will not pause or
tarry in its way;
Today that seems so long,
so strange, so bitter.
Will soon be forgotten
yesterday.

Nay, donot weep; new hope new faces
new dreams,
The unspent joy of all the
unborn years
Will prove your heart a traitor
to its sorrow,
And make your eyes unfaithful
to theit tears.

There is darkness all around,
No one is to be found,
Undaunted i tread
Where others dread...

For i seek the truth
I know my hard work will bear fruit
Dangers I dare
In defeat I dont despair...

Many-a-times I will be disheartened
I may want to stop
Doggedly I would go on
Till I reach the top (stars )

There may b thorns here n there
And my feet maybe bare
What if blood does flow?
Steadfast I go but slow!

I may weep in pain
While others look wid disdain
They may mock at my misery
So wht? some day.. I will b care free!

I may have a fall
I may b abandoned by all
I will take my winning leap
Before i go to my final sleep

Serene and blissful,
Game of shadow and light,
Glittering adornment,
Of lands delight.
Inconsistent and inconstant

"This is for my mom(dead)!
one of the last poems i am proud of..
Wrote it in the hostel in the first sem..when so many ppls mom used to come visit n call and i missed mine"

Gone are the dayz of old
Only stories can be told
Memories that bring tears
Memories of bygone years


A tender hand
Which firmly made me stand
Is nowhere to be found
Coz she is not around

Those comforting words
Still echoes in my ears
This loneliness i cant bear
Coz she is not near

She was ever present in my smiling dayz
She was there in my sorrows
she shared with me dreams of tomorrow
Now she has gone away

Away from realms of my touch
She has gone to heavenly abode
She has left me so cold
Oh i love her so much
I miss her so much

"Added here by popular demand. was on my profile at orkut if you guys remember."


Hope, you never leave me
Let you always reside in my heart.
When i am stumbling
When I am falling apart.
You rescue me.


When noone is by my side
When there is change in tide
When i am bereft of help
you be my guide

You be my guide
In the lanes of darkness
In the plains of brightness
In valley of sadness
On the mountains of happiness

Hope,you r my only support
In the ups n downs of life
In the rivers of sorrow
In the dreams of tomorrow

Please dont forsake me